Into The Unknown

The Trust Project ♦ March 4, 2020 ♦ 2 Comments

In the wake of Frozen 2 madness, my girls perpetually go around singing “Into the Unknown” throughout our home. I never thought I would be contemplating this song as the new anthem for my life; yet, here I am, venturing “into the unknown” on a call from God and a desire to share my life and experiences with others. Just as Elsa hears a call which eventually takes her “into the unknown” so too have I heard a call, but not from a strange lyrical voice ringing in my ear. My response to “cast into the deep” if you will, comes in response to a call that perhaps I have felt for some time. The vision for how I would respond to that call, however, has recently become more clear.

On the surface, my life is no different than many others. I was born into a loving family, I had siblings and supportive parents; I went to school, graduated from college, and eventually got married and started a family. It is the pages in between these significant life events where God has been writing a unique and eventful narrative. In fact, He has been busy writing your story too, but the question is, have you let Him be the author?

If you’re anything like me, you would probably have to say no. There are many times I have tried to take the pen away from God, thinking that whatever I could compose would somehow be better than what the infinite God of the universe could write. I’m happy to say that it has only taken me almost 35 years to recognize that I just might be wrong 😉.

This blog is a response to God asking me one single question. “Are you willing to surrender everything to me? Are you willing to let Me be in charge?” This is the question I’ve been running from my entire life. Simply put, when I hear this question, the first thing I think of is “What will this require of me?! How much are you going to take? Will I be lead down a path I don’t want to walk?”

Friends, I can only say that in my relatively short life, I have been asked to walk down paths I have not wanted to walk down, I have had to surrender many things not knowing what that might mean for my future, and I have continued to ask the question, “How much more can I handle God?”

Now, for a blog that is supposed to be about encouragement, that doesn’t sound very encouraging, does it? The one thing I can say, however, is this: Even though I have endured multiple challenges and setbacks, the deeper I have gone with God, the more free I have become. This is the great paradox of having a relationship with God. In the words of one of my new favorite songs by Laura Story, “When I give up, I gain”.

After the tragic loss of my twins at 12 weeks gestation just a few short months ago, I felt God posing this same question to me again. “How much do you trust me? How much are you willing to give?” And thus, The Trust Project was born.

Walking with God never disappoints-I know this from experience. Although the road has often been difficult, marred with pitfalls and wrong turns, I have been able to see His hand in all of it. This is the vision I want to impart to you, through sharing my life experiences: If you learn to “let it go”, you will experience a profound sense of peace that you have never known. (Perhaps Elsa and I have more in common than I realize).

1st Corinthians Chapter 2, verse 9 says “What eye has not seen, and ear has not heard, and what has not entered the human heart; What God has prepared for those who love Him.” Throughout my life, God has continually shown me that He is big enough and capable enough to provide for me and sustain me through any circumstances, no matter how difficult they may be. My vision is that you would trust Him to do the same for you, no matter what you may be facing.

In the end, Elsa’s quest to journey “into the unknown” leads her to the truth about the past, and ultimately to a deeper self-realization of who she is. Perhaps our stepping into the unknown is not much different…God is waiting there, ready to help us become who we were made to be. All we have to do is take the leap.